中文
人生的意义是什么？
人生下来，并不是你自己想要选择的。你不能选择自己的父母，不能选择周围的环境。然后你挣扎，你痛苦。你跳脱出当前的环境，去到了一个更大的世界，觉得自己在拥抱新生活。但同时你又陷入了另一种困境。你又在怀疑自己当初的选择对不对？你只是想过得更好，为什么周围的人感觉都在拖你的后腿？尤其是你爱的人——他们好像并没有那么爱你。
他们只想让你倾听他们的苦难，好让他们自己能过得更好。可是当你伸出手的时候，他们却又一次一次把你拽进深渊。
有时候，觉得自己这个「孩子」当得好累。你想活得积极、快乐，想探索人生无限的可能。可是你又觉得好孤独——你的背后没有人，你也不知道前方会在哪里。
努力工作可以带给你快乐，因为你认识了一些志同道合的同事。可是工作之外，你也需要朋友啊。但我还是好孤单。
那些痛苦，你从来没对任何人说过。你觉得自己很傻，觉得你犯的这些错误本来都是可以避免的；又或者，你也不知道该怎么办，因为从来没有人教过你。
生而为人真的好累，好想大哭一场。可哭完之后，还是得硬着头皮、强撑着去面对。
爱你的人，总是想让你看见他们的痛苦，却从来看不见你的痛苦，也从没有真正对你感同身受。
English
What is the meaning of life?
You never chose to be born. You cannot choose your parents or the world you grow up in. So you struggle, and you hurt. You break away from where you started and step into a bigger world, and for a while it feels like you are embracing a new life. Yet you find yourself in another kind of trap. You start to doubt whether the choices you made were right. You only wanted to live better—so why does it feel like the people around you are holding you back? Especially the ones you love. It is as if they do not love you quite as much as you need.
They only want you to listen to their suffering—so that they can live better lives. But when you reach out your hand, they drag you into the abyss, over and over again.
Sometimes I feel so tired being a child. I want to live with energy and joy; I want to explore how wide life can be. Yet I feel so alone—there is no one truly behind me, and I cannot tell where I am headed.
Hard work can make you happy, because you meet colleagues who feel like your people. But beyond work, you still need friends. And still—I feel lonely.
The nights you cried yourself hollow—you never told anyone. You think you were stupid; you think you could have avoided every mistake. Or you do not know what to do, because no one ever told you.
It is exhausting simply to be human. I want to sob until I am empty. But I had to face it strongly after crying—I still had to get up and carry on.
The people who love you always want you to see their pain. They never really see yours. They never offer you the empathy you need.